what a start..

i started off the year quite badly..

in the sense of health wise..

i fell sick badly x 2

and visited the doctor for i-dont-know-how-many-times...

i am lucky to have medical coverage 100% from my employer..

and falling sick is not really a thing for me to worry about because i know what the doctor is going to do on me..and what kind of treatment i am on..

on top of it..i get medical leaves..which i craved for so long since last year because of work stress..

and now..i got abundant of medical leaves and i do not have enough mc to cover me for the year..

>.<

most probably gonna sacrifice my public holidays or annual leaves..T.T

being diagnosed with h1n1 was like a mini vacation for me..

i did not really suffer much other than the fever and dry cough..

i get to go back home and rest..

though i have to isolate myself (hospitalization and home isolation)

3 days hospitalization leave and 4 days mc..

but being diagnosed with chicken pox is horrible..

i was having fever for 3 days not knowing the cause..

and i was assessing myself top to bottom thinking is there any infection going on in me..

or maybe i met some dirty stuff because i just finished night shift..

lolz..till that extend i wanted to know why am i having fever..hahaha

on the 3rd day..i saw the first vesicle aka pox on my forehead when i wash my hair and i knew i got the jackpot..again..

=.="

i never buy numbers before..but this year i'm really "lucky"

fever was enough to make me weak and lethargic to the max..

and those pox on me where popping as though its their party time..

and they attacked my face!!

and now quite a number of scars on my face and all over my body..

i did not scratch...yes i did not..

why would i wanna scratch those pox when they are new and raw..and painful?

most of it ruptured when i was sleeping...>.<

and all the ruptured ones dried up after a day or 2 and slowly turning into scars..

sobs..

plus chinese pantang - no kicap, no seafood, no beans, no chilli makes me feel even worse..

isolating myself at home was extremely boring..luckily i have 2 dogs with me..=D

and yea..varicella virus don't attack dogs..i did check before going back home..

so ya..i have 14 days mc..

4 + 14 = 18 days 

18 out of 14?i still owe 4 mc to be replace with my leaves..

huhu..

so now i am trying out Rosken Bio Serum for scars..hahahha..

hopefully it works..

*fingers crossed*

gonna get back to work soon..

getting rusty d..

currently..feeling..

and

 FAT!!!

yea..da fat me came out..sobs..

round like donut d..

huhuhu

bla..don't care..XP

i will eventually slim down..yes..i will..yes..

*being optimistic* * fingers crossed tight tight*

^.^

i became a glee fan d..hahaha..

basically listening to their songs every time i on my lappie..

i have to agree some of their cover version sounds nicer than the original singer..

hehehe..

but for this song..

i prefer the original singer..
bruno mars - marry you..

roar..

i'm feeling as though i am big fat rounded giant virus trapped in a room here..

hahha..isolation makes me fat..no..my friends made me fat..lolz..

they kept buying me nice food and bringing me snacks..

on top of hospital daily 5 meals a day..

gosh..fat me..

nurses are just too brave..

they are aware of what is air-borne diseases..how it is being transmitted and etc..

but they still have the courage and heart to enter my room and chat all the way..

for friendship..=D

i am blessed..

good news..my temperature is back to the normal range..

blocked nose and itchy throat are my new concerns..lolz

my friends and family been asking how did i get in contact with the virus..

all i answered was hospital acquired(from patients) or

maybe out there people have it but don't realize it or 

do not know the proper way of isolating his/herself..

or just plain as my immunity low at the moment and it just flared up..

i don't know..hahha

feeling sleepy again..>.<

chao..

isolating myself

hoho..first time got myself admitted..

for this reason

yup..not the ordinary one..

its this one..

 

swine is not the creator of this disease..

just happened to found in them more commonly..

whoo..i have 6 out of 9 symptoms..

hoho..

but i promised my M.O. i will drink lots and lots of water and eat well..

so i don't need to be on drip..

hehe

my current temperature ->37.8 from 38.4

i realize when i start having fever..

i'll be extremely lethargic and i can just doze off within minutes..

and waking up at weird hours like now feeling much better.. 

so i'm sorry if i did not reply or answer call for this few days..

please be kind on a patient like me..XD

please don't worry much about me..

i am in good hands here in hospital..

my colleagues and doctors are here to take care of me.. =)

i chose to be admitted as i do not wish to spread it to my friends and family..

i don't wish my friends and family to go through what i am going through..

 =)

wasting my off day with facebook

i was looking through groups/pages that i joined in facebook..

then i saw PlKn KeM SeNtoSA>>SIri 4,KuMpuLAn 2,TahUn 2OO7,KoMpenI AlPhA4

the group is created by john if i'm not mistaken..

lolz..anyway..thanks for creating 1 and gather all the members back..

=)

while i was browsing through the group posts..

i saw one video which made me smile..=)

plkn song that we sing a lot of times in kem..

and the background location of the video is the kem where i stayed during my service!!

all the fond memories just flashback..

night rounds that we do at night..

sleeping on tar road looking at the stars and moon..

missing home..lolz..

i remember i loved saturdays and sundays there..

its the time where my hp will be released back to me and we have outside religious talks..

we get to go out of kem and have nice vegetarian food..

*kem food is horrible..

which exposed me more to what buddism is about..

i have never attended any religious talks before..

i did learned something there..

though they spoke mandarin..and i struggled through to understand..

hahaha..friends were nice enough to translate for me..=D

those were the days..

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life..

life is so fragile..

its like chipsmore - now you see now you don't..

working in ICU made me so immune to deaths.

(yea..i sound like a heartless freak.)

i have a patient who came in early in the morning for heart attack..

i was talking with him during nursing rounds..

he was answering well and claimed much better at that moment..

then we sent him for a procedure..

half way through the procedure..he collapsed..

resuscitate..

resuscitate..

and he left..

he was admitted only for 3 hours..

then..he is gone..

so fast..

life..

my hands helped a lot of people and also sent a lot of people..

from new year till now..

i have seen 4 people who left in front of my eyes..

28 days which round up to 1 person each week?

gosh..

*the amount exclude people who left not during my working time..>.<

now i believe what my mom once told me when i was a kid..

"at this very moment..out there, there are new life who came to the world..

and there are also people who die of health problems and old age.."

God is so great..

He choose to give us life, hope and love..

He also decides when we shall leave and where we go afterlife..

May all the souls rest in peace and be in a better place without sufferings..

people out there who read this post..

please be conscious of your own health..

please..if you feel unwell..sudden pain and discomfort..

please do step forward to seek medical treatment early..

no matter what time..hospital is always open for you to seek medical treatment..

love yourself..save yourself...

your family members are waiting for you at home..

they wish to see you alive and talking with them..

cherish every moment you have with them..

before and after..

what difference do you notice in me?physically?

notice anything?

minus the pimple which appears at the forehead on the left 

and pimple at the chin on the right..=.=

yes?no?

hint :

look at my cheeks..

notice it?

i guess i lost about 30-40 % of my baby fat after coming to kl..

part of me is actually happy that i managed to loss those fat..

part of me is actually worried..

you must be thinking why am i worried that i lost the baby fat at cheeks..

i was looking back at my collection of photos..

then suddenly something strucked me..

i was thinking why am so prone to sickness and pimples growing more nowadays..

then my tummy "growled"..

then i just remembered that i have not taken dinner yet..

and all i had for brunch was just nasi lemak with 2 small slices of cucumber and quarter hard-boiled egg..

sigh..

i realized nowadays i drank less water as well..lack of sleep..and low urine output too..

bad bad bad..getting very very unhealthy..

time to change lifestyle..

a friend of mine said i am not firm enough in certain matters..

that contributed to my lack of sleep..lolz..

long time since i last heard the word "firm"..

old memories of school came back to me..hahhahaa

anyway..i think i know what i am doing..

thanks for the concern..

=)

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how bout this?notice any difference in style?personality?

lolz..

an old friend of mine claimed i was more innocent and sincere when i was young..

i don't know..

but one thing for sure..how i behave now is the effect of things i experienced all these years..

at least i am not doing any harm to anyone..

but i do offend people at times..

sorry..

ps : i am quite excited to go home for cny..collect ang pau..hahah..

ps 2 : should i dye or highlight my hair?hehehe

ps 3 : i am seriously worn out..i am sorry if i did not reply any messages or calls..

me need a break..me no robot..

-chao-

friendship is about acceptance..

why judge and change them to be like you and do not accept them the way they are?

they are unique with different upbringing, personality and attitude..

do you wish to be judged as well?

don't do it on others if you do not wish others do the same to you..

cheers ^.^