6 months more to go..

holla..june is around the corner..

2 months ++ without medical leave..

i shall maintain and keep this record this 31st dec..=)))

i believe in myself..and i promised i will take good care of myself..

for myself..

but i can't write guarantee letter that i won't fall sick.

just hope that it is not severe enough till i have to take leave..

i do feel a little abnormal here and there at times..

sore throat at times..lil runny nose at times..gastric problem..

and recently i have giddiness which i do not know why..with occasional diarrhea..

i sound so sickly right?

or maybe i am too observant of myself?hahha

i don't know..

anyway..i do not request for all the above to happen..

i admit last time during student time i wish i can fall sick and get leaves..yea..naughty..and i did not get any..

but this time i did not ask for it..and i just got it..twice..

(refer previous posts if you want to know what happened)

so i guess it did damage my immunity severely..=((

i wish i can do something to boost it up..

healthy diet...supplements..rest..i tried my best and still trying..

and some doinks who do not know how i feel might think i fake it or i seek for attention..

hahaha..i shall curse you to the max that you will go through what i go through..

yes..i am evil..my patience have a limit..thank you..

i sleep a lot because i feel tired..if i don't sleep enough..within days i will get all weird symptoms again..

ya..i am that weak..so what..??karma will hit you back..hmph..

i sacrificed my sleep for you and coincidentally i fall sick 

you teased me hard for not taking good care of myself..

i do not accompany you out you said i am evil..selfish..

fine..i shall just be myself..

i am not born to follow what others do..

take a mirror and look at yourself before talking about other people..

hahaha..sometimes i feel so proud of myself..

how can i stay in an environment with majority girls

work..home..college..school..

*give myself a pat on the back*

haha..ignorance..with patience..

oh..mind you..people do get angry with me because of my ignorance..

selfish konon because did not give much response..not enough attention to them..

but certain things are just pure bimbo..=.="

blah...~~

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enough..i shall just take good care of myself..

rubbish can dump into waste bin..

and i won't pick up anymore..

currently i am posting in UMMC for attachment..

i do learned a lot there..

seeing babies and kids everyday..

it is either they were born with congenital disorders or they just acquired it..

saddening thing is i see so many schooling kids have this neurological problem where they go into coma stage..some with cancer...some with unknown cause..

it is just the beginning of their life..

they should enjoy their childhood and not staying in hospital for months and years..

all i wish for them is that they recover from all these and lead a happy life..

if not..please let them go peacefully..

may God bless them..

and baby twin who left the world this morning..

may you rest in peace..

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i am hoping for the approval of my application to continue my studies in intensive care nursing..

hopefully i get it..

=)

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oh ya..

congratulations to LAI YIN YIN and TAN SIEW LENG who officially graduated in their degree..^.^

and who ever that i missed out..hehee..

welcome to the working world..

i finally had to agree with a friend of mine who told me..

"friends who are working thinks differently from friends who are studying..eventhough same age.."

yea..now when i looked back and think..

what he said is true..hahaa...i am old..

most important is grow old gracefully...hahahahhaha

sounds even older..

i know..hahahahhah..

inner peace..i shall achieve my own inner peace..

kung fu panda 2 characters are cute and the story line comes with moral values..

if you can understand it..

=)

financial stress..

it has been weeks since i last updated my blog..

i am gonna whine all the way down in this long post..hahhahaha

if you are not in a good emotional state to read then i would advice you to leave first..

don't judge me and get frustrated just because of my post..

not worth it..

XD

ready?XD

okie..i have a very horrible budget this month..

everything seems to come to the end of life and additional expenses incurred without me expecting..

first..i am assigned for an attachment in UMMC for 5 weeks..

i am lucky to have my senior with me who drives..so she fetches me on daily basis..

except occasions where her bf needs the car..where he will drive us there..if he can't, we will have to take taxi..

to be fair to her..i paid her few hundreds for petrol and we shared parking fees..

*ka-ching*ka-ching*
food there is not cheap too..they have a lot of varieties in different food courts..

and some cashier just don't charge according to the price stated..hoho

maybe it was subjected to change without notice..hahha..

and with additional 6% gov tax.. =.="

then i was "cheated" into buying a crappy direct sales product by a doctor..

vitamin C which does not really help much..

initially i was told that it will be a sample for me to try..

see see..give me 1 whole bottle and told me the price..

and very obviously asking me to pay..

and it was not cheap..*ggrrr..*

then later told me if i don't want, i can return..even if it is already open..

problem is i have already eaten few tablets..

so i don't feel right to return back to her..

sigh..

i also have frequent short trips back home on weekends..

this is the only time for me to grab the opportunity to go back home to see my parents..

when i start to work back on shifts..i don't think i will get so many days off..

and sometimes i will rather stay in kl to sleep more..

traveling long journeys is tiring..

then my phone decided to die after a little "magnetic disturbance"

no la..it is just an excuse to make me feel better..

because coincidentally i was at MRI ante room (a room with lil magnetic field exposure)

and my phone went "cuckoo"..cannot detect battery charger..

system reset by itself..cannot be charged and cannot detect battery life..

it was not the first time system went haywire..

i sent that phone for repair under warranty for 3 times..

and now its the 4th..

so i decided to buy myself a new phone..

because it was beyond repair..i tried..

seriously the quality of phones of that brand is really going downhill..

and dad enforced and reenforced not to buy the same brand..hahha..

so i got myself samsung galaxy ace..

initially was torn in between galaxy mini and ace..

anyway..ace won the race..

people whom i consult all told me to get ace..hahahah

it comes with 2 cover..white and black..

but i prefer the black 1..the texture is different and looks nicer..hehehhe

like this..

heheh..

so far no complaints yet..

quite good..

only a big hole in my savings..

lucky i still have a little savings..

wait..now gone..

T.T

not forgetting..birthday month..

i have many friends and family birthday which falls on may..and december..

some are mandatory to give presents some not..>.<

mind you..i have no extra financial assistance..hhuhuhu

choose not to have..

people who don't know me always think i am kiam siap..

judge without thinking or analyzing..

if they have to go through what i go through..

i bet they will go borrow money from friends or get from parents..

hng..

not trying to say i am a good financial planner..

it is just that everyone have their own reason why things are done that way..

never judge a book by its cover..

never mind..i always believe in karma..

i sees how karma works and i have seen how some of them got double..

sound eerie rite?hahha..
sometimes feel so helpless till have to depend on karma..hahhaha

always be true to yourself and others..
like i have always said..treat others the way you want to be treated..
which also some of my friends think i am very silly to be kind to others..
which i don't think so..but they were once in their shoes..and they don't realize..
sigh..seeing many things in life made me think a lot..sigh..
sound so old and philosophical..

and latest misfortune..

my housemate accidentally banged my house gate yesterday..

gate damaged by the impact..luckily no one was injured..thank god..

that heavy metal gate will cause us a big hole too..

seriously thankful no one was injured because at the time of accident few of my housemates were outside just next to the car..

thank you so much god..

viva is a good solid car..
banged on a locked heavy metal gate still steady..hohoh..
bumper loose ne..

now i am dying for my next salary to be out..

this kind of economy with my current pay..i think i have to seriously reconsider my job..

but i love nursing..

sigh..

*may that baby have a peaceful journey* =(

life..

you know you over worked when 

you are searching for keys all over the place, digging your bag and pocket..

but to find it dangling on your index finger..

you know you over worked when 

you woke up in the middle of the night shocked assuming you are late to work..

you know you over worked when

you can't sleep back after waking up and keep thinking about work..

you know you over worked when 

you spend on nothing other than just food and drink...

mind you..not even delicious food or healthy diet..food to fill stomach only..

you know you over worked when 

you feel so tired after work and all you do was just sleep at home..

working life is horrible when you have no breaks..

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honesty is the best policy..

do you know it does not apply to girls?

sorry and sad to say it..

but i have to admit it even i am a girl..

at times we rather people lie to us than telling us the truth..

because the truth hurts..

yup..but i still prefer people telling me the truth than lying to me all the time..

i react worse when i find out the truth myself..

and i always hate people who lie to me..

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sexual harassment at work place is still manageable with law and regulations..

peer pressure is worse when everyone thinks they are right and they are the boss..

especially if the whole place is filled with women..

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do you know?

if someone insult or blame you for something you did not do..

the insult and blame will fall back on to the accuser..

do you know why?

eg. if you bought a present to give to someone but that someone refused to accept your present..

to whom does to present belongs to?

same theory..=)

it is the matter of how you see it..

but sometimes we take it so hard just because we treat them as a friend..

and they usually take it for granted..

If you are right then there is no need to get angry
And if you are wrong then you don't have any right to get angry.

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i had a bad day..

tak pasal-pasal someone "cheat" me into buying a bottle of supplement which cost me RM90..

that someone offered to give me sample but ended up give me a bottle and asked me to pay..

someone scolded me for something which is not my fault..

and i never take the effort to clear myself..

and i ignored because no one will bother also..

they certified penalty means penalty..

if not..it means i am defensive..and stubborn..blah..

wait..i shall wait..karma will come back to them..

chill chill..

ya..and i saw karma hitting on someone who also scolded me when i was trying to be helpful..

wakaka..

shall wait..yes..i am evil..

so what if i am a newcomer..

old doesn't mean you are always right..

hng..

i am not perfect..tell me if i am wrong..

i will always admit if i am wrong..

do tell me nicely..

thank you..

=)

------------ treat others the way you wished to be treated -----------

♫♪

Taylor swift - back to december

I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life, tell me how’s your family
I haven’t seen them in a while
You’ve been good, busier than ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burning in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up late playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call
Then I think about summer
All the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came and the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye

[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your texting, your sweet smiles.
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
So if the chain is in your door I understand

[Chorus]
But this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
All the time

 

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lea michele - get it right

lalala..

praying for good health and wealth for the rest of the year..

praying for people around me to be happy and have best thing in life..

memories last forever

remember good memories..learn from bad memories..

Smiling releases endorphins and makes us feel better, even when you fake a smile you can feel better..

A smile is one of the most used human facial expressions.

Smiles can use between 5 to all 53 muscles. 

 by infobarrel

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day dreaming..~~

my dream house..saw it at straits quay, penang..

exactly like how i build the image in my brain..

*dream dream dream*

if only i can have it..

chak!!

big boy says hi..

heheh..bro's puppies..

XP..

star girl..wanted to keep her with me..

but i am not stable financially and many other factors which i consider..

i can't keep her..=(

hope their future owner will treat them well..

and not forgetting small girl..i did not get to snap a clear picture of her..

hope she grow up healthily..

love them..♥

 anyone wanna buy puppies T.T

 can contact my bro thru me..

 dead worm..

in the vege i bought from cafe X..

i'm glad that i eat pure and organic vege from cafe X..

but it is kinda gross to see the presence of the worm in the vege that i almost put in my mouth..

>.< 

^^

holla..i'm back..

i went back to hometown post night shift..

went for ching ming..and this is the first year i visited so many deceased people..sobs..

my 1st uncle and 2nd auntie's 1st anniversary of death..=(

so in total visited 5 family members..

may all of them rest in peace..

later at night..my family and my extended family members went for a trip down south to singapore..

one day trip..which lasted for 28hours..for only RM10..

yup..not lying..only RM10..food provided..but kinda boring..

basically it is all about casino and gambling..and majority of the people who went were senior citizens..

young adults like me and my sister and few others were there just for sightseeing and also accompany parents..and people like us who don't gamble can bored till death..

it was my first time entering a casino..not sure bout my sis..should be first too..so we walked around..looked around..see our aunties, uncles and parents gambled..

and we decided to try our luck..XD

we played roulette..i never knew what it is and how it works..

observe awhile and both of us share 50 dollars and bought chips for the sake of trying..

poor me..i have very bad luck..hahaha..lose all my chips within minutes..did not even win a game..

at least my sister won a game or two before losing all her chips..hahaha

this year really sui for me..hahahaha..

and both of us agreed that we rather spend those money on spa and massage than on gambling table..

lose within minutes..>.<

then we decided to walk around the whole place since we have 6 hours to waste..

and both of us pose for pictures all over the places..hahhahaha

1st destination was resort world sentosa..

 

posing with M&Ms

 poxy scar still intact..huhu..

less obvious when i'm blushing and hot..

 chak..trying to imitate the figurine..

 XD

do we look alike?

wakakakaka..

kekekekkee..

 looks yummeh..

 i wish i could buy most of the things inside..

but no..things are expo in there..=(

next destination was marina bay sand..
same thing..went there for the casino as well..
me and my sis were too tired..therefore less camwhoring..XD
we had our lunch + tea at darcis cafe..

banana royale..
consist of waffle + mint vanilla ice cream + banana + whipped cream + chocolate dip..
the waffle is the best i have tasted so far..
yummeh..

and i found out what is the meaning of latte, mocha, cappucino, expresso..

got a free pumbaa in conjuction of the lion king musical theatre at marina bay sand..
free membership and lucky draw..

my first impression "ee..why so..ugly geh.."
and the girl told me no simba or others that day..only pumbaa..
so have to take lo..
then, we passed by the exhibition hall for the musical theater and saw the rest of the toys..
pumbaa is one of the "handsome" toy ..simba is even uglier..
=.="

overall, it was a very tiring day..
eat a lot..walked a lot..
and got so annoyed with that apek who sat near us who on chinese oldies on loudspeaker in the bus where everyone is trying to sleep..selfish apek..
common sense la..sitting in a public transport you have to think of others la..
not only your ownself..
was so tempted to tell him off..
dad said we can't do anything to this kind of people..
ggrr...maybe he don't want us to be rude or cause trouble..

he know we are able to do that..

hahahhaha

and i encountered quite a number of time with this kind of inconsiderate people in train and bus too..

~common sense becoming not so common nowadays~

sigh..

what a start..

i started off the year quite badly..

in the sense of health wise..

i fell sick badly x 2

and visited the doctor for i-dont-know-how-many-times...

i am lucky to have medical coverage 100% from my employer..

and falling sick is not really a thing for me to worry about because i know what the doctor is going to do on me..and what kind of treatment i am on..

on top of it..i get medical leaves..which i craved for so long since last year because of work stress..

and now..i got abundant of medical leaves and i do not have enough mc to cover me for the year..

>.<

most probably gonna sacrifice my public holidays or annual leaves..T.T

being diagnosed with h1n1 was like a mini vacation for me..

i did not really suffer much other than the fever and dry cough..

i get to go back home and rest..

though i have to isolate myself (hospitalization and home isolation)

3 days hospitalization leave and 4 days mc..

but being diagnosed with chicken pox is horrible..

i was having fever for 3 days not knowing the cause..

and i was assessing myself top to bottom thinking is there any infection going on in me..

or maybe i met some dirty stuff because i just finished night shift..

lolz..till that extend i wanted to know why am i having fever..hahaha

on the 3rd day..i saw the first vesicle aka pox on my forehead when i wash my hair and i knew i got the jackpot..again..

=.="

i never buy numbers before..but this year i'm really "lucky"

fever was enough to make me weak and lethargic to the max..

and those pox on me where popping as though its their party time..

and they attacked my face!!

and now quite a number of scars on my face and all over my body..

i did not scratch...yes i did not..

why would i wanna scratch those pox when they are new and raw..and painful?

most of it ruptured when i was sleeping...>.<

and all the ruptured ones dried up after a day or 2 and slowly turning into scars..

sobs..

plus chinese pantang - no kicap, no seafood, no beans, no chilli makes me feel even worse..

isolating myself at home was extremely boring..luckily i have 2 dogs with me..=D

and yea..varicella virus don't attack dogs..i did check before going back home..

so ya..i have 14 days mc..

4 + 14 = 18 days 

18 out of 14?i still owe 4 mc to be replace with my leaves..

huhu..

so now i am trying out Rosken Bio Serum for scars..hahahha..

hopefully it works..

*fingers crossed*

gonna get back to work soon..

getting rusty d..