♫♪

Taylor swift - back to december

I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life, tell me how’s your family
I haven’t seen them in a while
You’ve been good, busier than ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burning in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up late playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call
Then I think about summer
All the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came and the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was goodbye

[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your texting, your sweet smiles.
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
So if the chain is in your door I understand

[Chorus]
But this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
All the time

 

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lea michele - get it right

lalala..

praying for good health and wealth for the rest of the year..

praying for people around me to be happy and have best thing in life..

memories last forever

remember good memories..learn from bad memories..

Smiling releases endorphins and makes us feel better, even when you fake a smile you can feel better..

A smile is one of the most used human facial expressions.

Smiles can use between 5 to all 53 muscles. 

 by infobarrel

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day dreaming..~~

my dream house..saw it at straits quay, penang..

exactly like how i build the image in my brain..

*dream dream dream*

if only i can have it..

chak!!

big boy says hi..

heheh..bro's puppies..

XP..

star girl..wanted to keep her with me..

but i am not stable financially and many other factors which i consider..

i can't keep her..=(

hope their future owner will treat them well..

and not forgetting small girl..i did not get to snap a clear picture of her..

hope she grow up healthily..

love them..♥

 anyone wanna buy puppies T.T

 can contact my bro thru me..

 dead worm..

in the vege i bought from cafe X..

i'm glad that i eat pure and organic vege from cafe X..

but it is kinda gross to see the presence of the worm in the vege that i almost put in my mouth..

>.< 

^^

holla..i'm back..

i went back to hometown post night shift..

went for ching ming..and this is the first year i visited so many deceased people..sobs..

my 1st uncle and 2nd auntie's 1st anniversary of death..=(

so in total visited 5 family members..

may all of them rest in peace..

later at night..my family and my extended family members went for a trip down south to singapore..

one day trip..which lasted for 28hours..for only RM10..

yup..not lying..only RM10..food provided..but kinda boring..

basically it is all about casino and gambling..and majority of the people who went were senior citizens..

young adults like me and my sister and few others were there just for sightseeing and also accompany parents..and people like us who don't gamble can bored till death..

it was my first time entering a casino..not sure bout my sis..should be first too..so we walked around..looked around..see our aunties, uncles and parents gambled..

and we decided to try our luck..XD

we played roulette..i never knew what it is and how it works..

observe awhile and both of us share 50 dollars and bought chips for the sake of trying..

poor me..i have very bad luck..hahaha..lose all my chips within minutes..did not even win a game..

at least my sister won a game or two before losing all her chips..hahaha

this year really sui for me..hahahaha..

and both of us agreed that we rather spend those money on spa and massage than on gambling table..

lose within minutes..>.<

then we decided to walk around the whole place since we have 6 hours to waste..

and both of us pose for pictures all over the places..hahhahaha

1st destination was resort world sentosa..

 

posing with M&Ms

 poxy scar still intact..huhu..

less obvious when i'm blushing and hot..

 chak..trying to imitate the figurine..

 XD

do we look alike?

wakakakaka..

kekekekkee..

 looks yummeh..

 i wish i could buy most of the things inside..

but no..things are expo in there..=(

next destination was marina bay sand..
same thing..went there for the casino as well..
me and my sis were too tired..therefore less camwhoring..XD
we had our lunch + tea at darcis cafe..

banana royale..
consist of waffle + mint vanilla ice cream + banana + whipped cream + chocolate dip..
the waffle is the best i have tasted so far..
yummeh..

and i found out what is the meaning of latte, mocha, cappucino, expresso..

got a free pumbaa in conjuction of the lion king musical theatre at marina bay sand..
free membership and lucky draw..

my first impression "ee..why so..ugly geh.."
and the girl told me no simba or others that day..only pumbaa..
so have to take lo..
then, we passed by the exhibition hall for the musical theater and saw the rest of the toys..
pumbaa is one of the "handsome" toy ..simba is even uglier..
=.="

overall, it was a very tiring day..
eat a lot..walked a lot..
and got so annoyed with that apek who sat near us who on chinese oldies on loudspeaker in the bus where everyone is trying to sleep..selfish apek..
common sense la..sitting in a public transport you have to think of others la..
not only your ownself..
was so tempted to tell him off..
dad said we can't do anything to this kind of people..
ggrr...maybe he don't want us to be rude or cause trouble..

he know we are able to do that..

hahahhaha

and i encountered quite a number of time with this kind of inconsiderate people in train and bus too..

~common sense becoming not so common nowadays~

sigh..

what a start..

i started off the year quite badly..

in the sense of health wise..

i fell sick badly x 2

and visited the doctor for i-dont-know-how-many-times...

i am lucky to have medical coverage 100% from my employer..

and falling sick is not really a thing for me to worry about because i know what the doctor is going to do on me..and what kind of treatment i am on..

on top of it..i get medical leaves..which i craved for so long since last year because of work stress..

and now..i got abundant of medical leaves and i do not have enough mc to cover me for the year..

>.<

most probably gonna sacrifice my public holidays or annual leaves..T.T

being diagnosed with h1n1 was like a mini vacation for me..

i did not really suffer much other than the fever and dry cough..

i get to go back home and rest..

though i have to isolate myself (hospitalization and home isolation)

3 days hospitalization leave and 4 days mc..

but being diagnosed with chicken pox is horrible..

i was having fever for 3 days not knowing the cause..

and i was assessing myself top to bottom thinking is there any infection going on in me..

or maybe i met some dirty stuff because i just finished night shift..

lolz..till that extend i wanted to know why am i having fever..hahaha

on the 3rd day..i saw the first vesicle aka pox on my forehead when i wash my hair and i knew i got the jackpot..again..

=.="

i never buy numbers before..but this year i'm really "lucky"

fever was enough to make me weak and lethargic to the max..

and those pox on me where popping as though its their party time..

and they attacked my face!!

and now quite a number of scars on my face and all over my body..

i did not scratch...yes i did not..

why would i wanna scratch those pox when they are new and raw..and painful?

most of it ruptured when i was sleeping...>.<

and all the ruptured ones dried up after a day or 2 and slowly turning into scars..

sobs..

plus chinese pantang - no kicap, no seafood, no beans, no chilli makes me feel even worse..

isolating myself at home was extremely boring..luckily i have 2 dogs with me..=D

and yea..varicella virus don't attack dogs..i did check before going back home..

so ya..i have 14 days mc..

4 + 14 = 18 days 

18 out of 14?i still owe 4 mc to be replace with my leaves..

huhu..

so now i am trying out Rosken Bio Serum for scars..hahahha..

hopefully it works..

*fingers crossed*

gonna get back to work soon..

getting rusty d..

currently..feeling..

and

 FAT!!!

yea..da fat me came out..sobs..

round like donut d..

huhuhu

bla..don't care..XP

i will eventually slim down..yes..i will..yes..

*being optimistic* * fingers crossed tight tight*

^.^

i became a glee fan d..hahaha..

basically listening to their songs every time i on my lappie..

i have to agree some of their cover version sounds nicer than the original singer..

hehehe..

but for this song..

i prefer the original singer..
bruno mars - marry you..

roar..

i'm feeling as though i am big fat rounded giant virus trapped in a room here..

hahha..isolation makes me fat..no..my friends made me fat..lolz..

they kept buying me nice food and bringing me snacks..

on top of hospital daily 5 meals a day..

gosh..fat me..

nurses are just too brave..

they are aware of what is air-borne diseases..how it is being transmitted and etc..

but they still have the courage and heart to enter my room and chat all the way..

for friendship..=D

i am blessed..

good news..my temperature is back to the normal range..

blocked nose and itchy throat are my new concerns..lolz

my friends and family been asking how did i get in contact with the virus..

all i answered was hospital acquired(from patients) or

maybe out there people have it but don't realize it or 

do not know the proper way of isolating his/herself..

or just plain as my immunity low at the moment and it just flared up..

i don't know..hahha

feeling sleepy again..>.<

chao..

isolating myself

hoho..first time got myself admitted..

for this reason

yup..not the ordinary one..

its this one..

 

swine is not the creator of this disease..

just happened to found in them more commonly..

whoo..i have 6 out of 9 symptoms..

hoho..

but i promised my M.O. i will drink lots and lots of water and eat well..

so i don't need to be on drip..

hehe

my current temperature ->37.8 from 38.4

i realize when i start having fever..

i'll be extremely lethargic and i can just doze off within minutes..

and waking up at weird hours like now feeling much better.. 

so i'm sorry if i did not reply or answer call for this few days..

please be kind on a patient like me..XD

please don't worry much about me..

i am in good hands here in hospital..

my colleagues and doctors are here to take care of me.. =)

i chose to be admitted as i do not wish to spread it to my friends and family..

i don't wish my friends and family to go through what i am going through..

 =)