bersih a.k.a. clean..

when i was young..i used to listen to stories told by my late grandmother who told us about japanese occupation..

those days all the girls cut their hair short and mimic like boys..made themselves ugly by staining their face with charcoal and dirt..always stay at home to avoid meeting japanese soldiers..they were known to kidnap young pretty girls and rape them..those were the days where malaya was ruled by japanese..

then..came the war..british colonization and finally malaya obtained independence..

and formed malaysia..

i grew up knowing the leader of the country was tun mahathir..little did i know bout politics back then..

some people commented he was a great leader..some commented how corrupted he was..

the little girl in me did not bother to know in depth..

even now..i still do not have any interest related to politics..

my dad and aunties used to say we all should know a little about our own country politics..

so..yea..whether i like it or not..our school syllabus made history a compulsory subject..and somehow i knew more about how malaysia was formed and learned how to appreciate what the heroes did in the past..

then i came to know prime minister will change..lolz..the innocent me thought tun mahathir will hold the post forever..there is no need for election or what so ever..hahahaha..

till i grew up..he resigned..new pm took over..all sorts of political changes that i noticed..

maybe because that was the time where i started to read newspaper..ahhahaha..

propaganda on this leader committing this crime..that leader committing that crime..

open discrimination..(worse than gossiping..appears in all newspapers and website..=.=") some related to personal life..rallies to hand in memo..mini protest..etc etc..

it was only about 4 years i'm in kl..

guess my dad warned me 2-3 times not to go out on the respective days because of planned rallies..

the latest..bersih 2.0..

the usual me..never bother bout what is going on in politics..i never knew what was this rally about..

till i see people in facebook putting bersih 2.0 pic badge on their profile..

i took the initiative to read about it..and asked my friends who knew bout it..

then only i knew they wanted to hand in a memorandum to the king..

what is there to create a fuss just because of sending a memo?

just get the proposal done and send it in..even if they want to march and stroll along the street..make sure they don't cause havoc or trouble..

don't we have freedom of speech and action?

you may say i am naive and innocent who knows zero bout politics..

but that was what i was taught in school..

we live in a democratic country..all of us have the rights for democracy..

fair elections and freedom to choose..

what is there for police to block all the main roads and disrupt daily routine and hurting citizens when they claimed all the efforts were done to avoid disrupting daily routine and endanger citizens..

i had to stay home and kept monitoring the news for updates to know what is going on..

feared that i might be caught this morning just because i accidentally wore a yellow shirt to work yesterday night..(though a few mangkuk-fied drivers honk me for no reason when i was walking back..i was not even crossing the road and they honk me..@#$%)

fear to even go out for lunch/dinner..=.=

even planned to stock up food in case of emergency..

what if in the middle of them stopping our own citizens and injuring them, our country got attacked by outsiders?will they have enough manpower to overcome those attacks?

then..out of no where a group of patriots have another rally to show how patriotic they are..

guess saturdays should not be an off day since people misuse it to have rallies like this..

people who are not related should just go back home and be with their family members..visit their parents..spend time while they are around and not cry and regret when they leave..

petronas should come out with more family related advertisement to remind people.. 

appreciate the peace we have now..

stick on what real democracy is about and do it well.. 

 a true strong leader will win no matter what..

sigh..

inflation is going on..everything is so expensive..crimes in the country not reduced..education going downhill..

there are so many things more to improve..but little seemed to be done..

all i see is only power-crazy people..

sad and disappointed..

i do not wish to be back to the era where my late grandma had to stay at home..hiding underground..

(last time their house got underground room..now where got?want to hide also no where..>.<)

>.<

pray for peace..

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talking bout death and dying..

i attended a talk on death and dying to understand more bout it..

it was about the emotions felt bout the person who is dying and how family members react after receiving the news..

it was very interesting and i watched a movie, Go Towards the Light..

sad but it covers all the theory part of death and dying..

appreciate all you have..and people around you..

don't wait till its too late..

not everyone have a duration of time knowing when he/she will die..

sudden death do happen..

funny thing a doc said to me after seeing a bedridden poor prognosis popo..

doc - if i do admit into icu..don't save me and drag my life..let me go..

me - wa..cannot..how also i have to play my part and save people..

doc - no no..put it this way..treat me like how you wish to be treated..

me - *understood and i smiled* 

i don't think i want my life to be dragged too if i won't have a good quality of life..

just donate all my functional organs and let me go peacefully..

=)