wee...^.^

for the first time..i defib-ed a patient..

wee..after 1 year of working..finally got the chance..during emergency some more..

gan cheong gila-gila but managed to do it..

feel so nice..

but blur and i forgot to say everyone clear..hahahaha..

anyway..all already cleared when i hold up the paddles..hahah

never mind..still learning..new experience..^.^

today's code was terrible..

real critical and bad..

stat iabp..

wee..eye opener..hehe...

more things for me to learn up..

i need to brush up my skills..knowledge..etc..

never ending learning process..=)

speechless..

initially i was pretty angry over bersih 2.0 vs government..

why must they choose on a date where it is my post night shift?

initial plan was to genting with my ji muis..

then leave not approved..cancelled..fine..

 then i got the news my auntie passed away on the night of the rally..

worse..wanted to go back home so badly..pending..pending..

till yesterday census low..my leave approved..

things back at home was not so good..

everyone was shocked with the news and taking it very badly..

though i'm used to it..(yea..i'm cold-blooded..i see it so frequent..)

but i felt helpless when all i can do was just give them a shoulder to cry on..
sigh..guess they will slowly accept the fact..

ok..back to bersih 2.0..

now i'm actually clear about what they are fighting for..

clean and fair electoral system..

yup..they hit it right at the point..

what is the point for the opposition party coming up with great plans for future and etc without a fair election?

and this is how the plan attracted people to join the rally..

not because they are against the government..(not all..some maybe..)

they just want to have a clean and fair result at the end of the day..

if everything is good..what is there to be afraid of?

calling it illegal rally but stating generally our country is a democratic country which accept rallies?

define illegal then..

all they did was just strolling in the city in a group..(with a cause in mind..)

wearing coloured t-shirt is not illegal..

freedom to walk is not illegal too..

why is there needs to have 1 big bunch of police and fru people to be around?

doesn't matter..catch all they want..

shout all they want..

but why shoot tear gas?why spray chemical water?

sigh..worse..into hospital..

published la how much you want saying police did not do that..

videos and photos are all the proofs..

even hundred and thousands of people at that time..

patients and nurses in the compound won't lie definitely..

all the lies will make people lose trust..

and cause more hatred..

we are no longer in the era where all we have for information is from newspaper and words of a man's mouth..

local printed newspaper might publish certain approved news..

but cyber world publish approved and unapproved news..

accept the fact..people keep growing..technologies improves..

you can lie to me now..you can't lie to me forever..

a death during the rally..

i just watched a video on what happened..

impossible people would edit the film just to tarnish police force..

what benefit do they gain?

i guess all the officers who cuffed his hand and watched him breathing his last breath will have nightmare everyday..

(or i shall pray hard for them to have it..)

because all they did was just stand there and watched while passerby tried to help..

but unfortunately..he passed away due to ignorance of these people..

sad..

sometimes when i heard that my friends get involved in fights..planning for fights..

(yea..i have dumbo friends too..they know it..)

i'll always be there bugging and begging..please..don't fight..i don't wish to see them injured..

yea..what is the point to fight?at the end injured..

and who suffer?not only them..nurses and doctors too...and family..

attending to them midnight..we are out to save people ..they are out to cause harm to people..

irritating species..

haha..

i guess my beloved malaysia is not gonna be in peace till the election..

even during and after election will be chaos..

hopefully no innocent life being sacrificed..

"ah po in heaven..please bless us..i don't want to dig a hole underground and hide.."

bersih a.k.a. clean..

when i was young..i used to listen to stories told by my late grandmother who told us about japanese occupation..

those days all the girls cut their hair short and mimic like boys..made themselves ugly by staining their face with charcoal and dirt..always stay at home to avoid meeting japanese soldiers..they were known to kidnap young pretty girls and rape them..those were the days where malaya was ruled by japanese..

then..came the war..british colonization and finally malaya obtained independence..

and formed malaysia..

i grew up knowing the leader of the country was tun mahathir..little did i know bout politics back then..

some people commented he was a great leader..some commented how corrupted he was..

the little girl in me did not bother to know in depth..

even now..i still do not have any interest related to politics..

my dad and aunties used to say we all should know a little about our own country politics..

so..yea..whether i like it or not..our school syllabus made history a compulsory subject..and somehow i knew more about how malaysia was formed and learned how to appreciate what the heroes did in the past..

then i came to know prime minister will change..lolz..the innocent me thought tun mahathir will hold the post forever..there is no need for election or what so ever..hahahaha..

till i grew up..he resigned..new pm took over..all sorts of political changes that i noticed..

maybe because that was the time where i started to read newspaper..ahhahaha..

propaganda on this leader committing this crime..that leader committing that crime..

open discrimination..(worse than gossiping..appears in all newspapers and website..=.=") some related to personal life..rallies to hand in memo..mini protest..etc etc..

it was only about 4 years i'm in kl..

guess my dad warned me 2-3 times not to go out on the respective days because of planned rallies..

the latest..bersih 2.0..

the usual me..never bother bout what is going on in politics..i never knew what was this rally about..

till i see people in facebook putting bersih 2.0 pic badge on their profile..

i took the initiative to read about it..and asked my friends who knew bout it..

then only i knew they wanted to hand in a memorandum to the king..

what is there to create a fuss just because of sending a memo?

just get the proposal done and send it in..even if they want to march and stroll along the street..make sure they don't cause havoc or trouble..

don't we have freedom of speech and action?

you may say i am naive and innocent who knows zero bout politics..

but that was what i was taught in school..

we live in a democratic country..all of us have the rights for democracy..

fair elections and freedom to choose..

what is there for police to block all the main roads and disrupt daily routine and hurting citizens when they claimed all the efforts were done to avoid disrupting daily routine and endanger citizens..

i had to stay home and kept monitoring the news for updates to know what is going on..

feared that i might be caught this morning just because i accidentally wore a yellow shirt to work yesterday night..(though a few mangkuk-fied drivers honk me for no reason when i was walking back..i was not even crossing the road and they honk me..@#$%)

fear to even go out for lunch/dinner..=.=

even planned to stock up food in case of emergency..

what if in the middle of them stopping our own citizens and injuring them, our country got attacked by outsiders?will they have enough manpower to overcome those attacks?

then..out of no where a group of patriots have another rally to show how patriotic they are..

guess saturdays should not be an off day since people misuse it to have rallies like this..

people who are not related should just go back home and be with their family members..visit their parents..spend time while they are around and not cry and regret when they leave..

petronas should come out with more family related advertisement to remind people.. 

appreciate the peace we have now..

stick on what real democracy is about and do it well.. 

 a true strong leader will win no matter what..

sigh..

inflation is going on..everything is so expensive..crimes in the country not reduced..education going downhill..

there are so many things more to improve..but little seemed to be done..

all i see is only power-crazy people..

sad and disappointed..

i do not wish to be back to the era where my late grandma had to stay at home..hiding underground..

(last time their house got underground room..now where got?want to hide also no where..>.<)

>.<

pray for peace..

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talking bout death and dying..

i attended a talk on death and dying to understand more bout it..

it was about the emotions felt bout the person who is dying and how family members react after receiving the news..

it was very interesting and i watched a movie, Go Towards the Light..

sad but it covers all the theory part of death and dying..

appreciate all you have..and people around you..

don't wait till its too late..

not everyone have a duration of time knowing when he/she will die..

sudden death do happen..

funny thing a doc said to me after seeing a bedridden poor prognosis popo..

doc - if i do admit into icu..don't save me and drag my life..let me go..

me - wa..cannot..how also i have to play my part and save people..

doc - no no..put it this way..treat me like how you wish to be treated..

me - *understood and i smiled* 

i don't think i want my life to be dragged too if i won't have a good quality of life..

just donate all my functional organs and let me go peacefully..

=)

do do mo mo kun kun...XD

have you heard of domokun?

or seen domokun plush toy?

this chocolate rectangle kiddo here...

some of my friends actually called this lil kiddo a pile of dunk because of its colour..

some called it ugly..

i find it attractive actually..

some how when i first saw it..it appears as an ordinary toy..

then later when i went to action city..and saw lots and lots of domo there..

somehow it attracted me..

since years back i already lost the desire to own plush toys..

(please don't waste money to get me plush toy unless i request..hahahaha)

but i don't know why..now i feel like having a domo..

not keychain domo nor lil pillow..i want a medium / big plush domo..

XD hahahha..

yea..weird..and i don't know why..

i have this as my phone wallpaper..

kekekeke

childish eh?

i found out domo appeared in a short stop-motion sketches which made him famous since 1998 in japan..

and these are few of its facts..

- "a strange creature that hatched from an egg"

- saw-toothed mouth that is locked wide open

- favorite food is Japanese-style meat and potato stew 

- strong dislike for apples because of an unexplained mystery in his DNA
 - communicate by producing a low-pitched noise which sounds somewhat like his own name

- known to pass gas repeatedly when nervous or upset

lolx..

saw-toothed mouth..that mouth gives an impression of anger to me initially..

but some were made it in a way its gives the impression like it is smiling..

hahaha..illusion..??

then i was thinking whether is there anything wrong with me or not after entering a shop in sunway...

i was looking for domo's price and then i walked around and i was stucked looking at smiley toys..

suddenly felt so bipolar..hahaha

a moment of an angry big mouth toy..next moment wide cute smiling toys..

lolx..

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in need of more positive vibes..

i have a lot of negative vibes around me..

imbalance..

>.<