midnight randomness

after so long since i last update my blog..

this is gonna be compilation of a few random thoughts at this moment..

i was pretty busy with assignments and posting for the past 1 month..

been rushing all my assignments as date due was changed last minute and a few unexpected events that happened..

when i was rushing my assignments with class mates..

i came to realized..plagiarism is really a big big issue..

may be i am a little blunt and "yat lok mok" in this context..

but it seriously did not come to me that 

copy paste assignment = my assignment..

sound so weird right?

how can i take credit of other people's work as mine?

but for some people..its perfectly alright and good..

some even think it's a smart choice to do it..

seriously i just dont feel its right and i dont get any satisfaction out of doing the assignment..

sigh...

worse thing is..some people who plagiarize dont even know how to plagiarize properly..

direct copy paste and only from one source and just hand the assignment in...

sigh..

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some superbug invaded my immune system again..

sometimes i felt like i am an old auntie who keep seeing doctor and get admitted few times a year..

hahaha..

no i did not get myself admitted again..don't worry..

just fell sick after some home-spread-virus among housemates..hahaha

so i am down again..

bad year for my health..

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i realized there are few super drug which cures symptoms immediately..

hahaha..i just love them now..

for any allergic reaction or rashes..IV hydrocortisone 200mg will be perfect..

rashes will subside within a minute or 2..

awesome..

next..Voltaren suppositories..

cure fever with body aches and all very well..a suppository is good enough to subside all the symptom and reduce temperature within 10-20minutes..

super awesome..

ahahhaha..

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nursing..its about saving people's life and helping the sick going through tough time..

every patient who come to the hospital do not expect to be admitted and what more be potential to leave the hospital through a back door(mortuary)..

all they have in mind is just..i go to the hospital because i dont feel well and need medical attention..

some patients may come with 50-50 chances of survival because of their medical condition..

they came to us with fate and entire life in our hands..

(not only nurses..doctors too..but in this context focus more on nurses)

we are the eyes, the ears and the mouth for the patients..

we are trained to advocate what patient need and do our best to protect our patient's benefit..

but why do some nurses forget this fact?

is paper work that important?is your patient who have changes in breathing pattern not important for you?

deterioration of condition does not happen in a minute or two..

not all patient is that critical like in icu where the next moment everything change..

research have shown that majority of collapse patients has significant changes in the vital signs and general condition 8 hours before the collapse..

but why nobody detect any of it?

sad to say and see..

poor assessment..poor management..negligence..

if nurses have treat patient with more passion and care like their own blood relation..

all this will not happen..

every patient deserve a chance of living like any other human..

we are given a pair of hands to save lives and not to be murderer..

always do no harm to patients..

*very sad over a few incidents..=(*

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please appreciate people around us..

life is short and nobody can predict the future..

what if i sleep today and never wake up tomorrow?

life is unpredictable..

i sound so old at times..

maybe i am too exposed to life and death..

seeing people who miss their chance to fulfill their love one's living wish..

seeing people who regret not treating their love one well when they are still around..

all this makes me appreciate what i have..

my approach and opinion towards death also change totally..

seriously..appreciate and treat everyone well as you may not know what will happen tomorrow..

whOa..

you know what?

friends can treat you nicely when they need your help..

when they need a shoulder to cry on..people to listen to problems..

friends can be the best of people to hang out with when everything sails smoothly..

(just a general statement..i know there are real true friends who exist..=] )

friends can give you happiness and create a lot of memories in your life..

but 

friends can also insult you when they just don't like you going against their wishes and request..

(some horrible silly childish stupid request..=.=")

friends can also get angry just because you have other friends to attend to..out of jealousy..>.<

(btw..you don't own me..no one own me..)

friends can also give silent cold treatment when they have PMS or after a bad day..

friends can also scold you for minor things which "no-matter-how-much-you-try-to-think-how-it-is-related-to-them-but-fail" which they use as a reason to scold you..

friends can literally step on your self-confidence and "dominate" you mentally..

if you allow it to happen..

friends can do wonders to an individual..

colleagues can be the best people who understands your work stress and people at work..

colleagues can be people who help you out when you have heavy workloads..

colleagues can be your best of friends..

but..

colleagues can also be selfish enough to 'snatch' opportunities from you..

colleagues can also be people who step on your back in order to move up..

colleagues can also be people who make your day miserably miserable by being a dictator..

whoa..

human can be so ugly right?

hahahahah
sigh..suddenly sounds like there is no hope in the world..everyone is so fake..

hahahhaa

i'm actually aware of all the above long long time ago..

there are real friends and fake friends around everyone's life..

it is just that whether their mask still intact on their face or not..

and whether that someone realize the presence of the mask or not..

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sad to admit..i know who is true and who is fake..who is selfish..who is honest and can be trusted..

people might say i am silly to still treat them well..

i chose to accept them for who they are..

everyone is unique in their own way..

sigh..

disappointed and speechless..

sigh..

the most important thing..

thank you and buck off if you ever have the thought to control me like your puppet..

i am chew cheng im..

the one and only chew cheng im who have a limit in tolerating nonsense from freako..

yay!!

today my life begins

Bruno Mars - today my life begins..

not a new song..but a song i'm currently into..hehehe

somehow sing-a-long with d lyrics made me think and flashed back few things..

=)

exam exam exam work work work..

okie..i successfully finished the one quarter of my post basic course..

yay..!!

exam week was horrible for me..

sad to say..i always burn midnight oil till i have only 3-4 hours of sleep every day..

during the exam week, i will still be able to stand it..

thanks to adrenaline rush in the system..

but once it was over..

i dropped dead flat..

+.+

oh wait..i did not drop dead on the day exam was over..

the adrenaline level were still high in my body..

so i went home after so long (1 month +) to see my parents and dogs..

then eat all the superb ipoh food..

headed back to kl after an extremely short weekend holiday..

the above bar chart shows my energy and mood level during and after exam. XD

okie..i shall elaborate a lil..hehe..

exam days - adrenaline rush high..

post exam day 1 - happy and excited..not tired yet..

day 2 - tired but still enjoying..went out with friends and also sister after i reached kl..

day 3 - woke up very very early to find my way to hkl for posting..slept bout 4-5 hours..extremely tired..slept off at 5.30pm after work..

day 4 - i woke up LATE!!!6.10am!!!friend who suppose to pick me up and fetch me to hkl had to ring the door bell to wake me up as coincidentally my handphone battery chose to die with me in dreamland..no alarm..no phone calls..no messages..>.<

whole house-citizens woke up just because i woke up late...waa....

first in my history..sigh..

despite sleeping for almost 13 hours..my eyes bags were still prominent..

eyelids swollen..>.<

this gives me a very good lesson..

i shall not neglect my sleep anymore..

and 

make sure my hand phone battery can last till the next morning..

i shall be a good girl who sleeps early during this posting..

its something like attachment/tagging in PPUM..

stand and do nothing..

help when necessary and observe and learn..

boring enough that i can sleep standing..

so must make sure i have enough sleep and don't spoil my college's image..

gambate ah im..XD

lalalala..

yay..its friday again..

lalalalala..♥

this is not an ordinary friday..

its the last day of class before holiday starts..

wee..~~~

don't know why nowadays i am so excited about fridays..

over-stressed?playful?
lolz..seriously i wonder why..

3 years of diploma was happy-go-lucky all the way through..

but 6 months course can make me die standing..??

hahahaha

may God bless me..

=)

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miss my doggies very muchie..

*geram* can't wait to go back and hug them..♥♥

i failed =/

i failed to keep my "mc free" goal..

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if you are lost..maybe you can read this post ..

sigh..

i tried so hard and do what ever that i can to keep myself healthy..

chicken burger..chicken burger..you spoiled my plan!!

huhuhuhu..

i'm not stating chicken burger from which fast food restaurant..

it was from my own analysis that the burger made me sick..

i got no proof you see..

nobody can certify cause of food poisoning unless you are so free to take specimens for investigation..

based on signs and symptoms after i ate the burger..

indigestion for 6 hours..

can you believe it?my stomach still full after eating for 6 hours...obviously something was not right..

(i'll get hungry after 2 hours le..hahah..shy ne..)

then i had headache + giddy 

brain cells told me..maybe i was too tired doing assignment..

shall sleep..

went to bed early..

2 am..woke up..still giddy..sigh..

turn to my right side..

sudden gush of salivation..*swallow swallow*

cannot..ran to the toilet..

bbllaa...*vomit++++*

sigh..

i think it was about 4-5 years since i last vomit..

and i never like vomiting..

retching of my throat and esophagus..

*eerrr..*

like usual..after vomit will always feel better..

so i bathed and slept off..

next day..can't even sit up..

huhuhu..then..diarrhea..

sigh..

end up taking mc again..

was given intravenous(IV) medication, then i felt much better..

burger oh burger..

please be good the next time i eat you..

guess i won't touch you anytime soon..

*praying hard no more sickness..*

ps : need to go buang sueh ar..so bad this year..sigh...

ps 2 : i love IV med..cure whatever symptoms quick enough..hehee..i will always pray for seniors to inject on me..less pain and no bruises.. XD

back to class..

after working for a year..i am finally back to class again..hahha

college and hospital accepted my application to further studies in post basic in intensive care nursing..

initially i wanted it so badly..

then my human resource management was totally slow and did not respond to my application..

then there were external factors which made me reconsider again and again..

then i was hoping that my application is not approved..

hahahhaha..

then i checked with HR again as class is going to start soon..

and i was told that my application has been accepted..

wakakkaka..

and they gave me 2 stacks of contract for me to get my guarantors to sign..

yea..my contract extended for another 2 years..

sigh..

so..i am now officially a student again..

yea..i can use student card again..waaakaakakka..

having classes back in CON is so usual and routine to me..

i went through all that for 3 years and i am back for another 6 months..hahaha

but this time it is all about adult learning and being independent..

expectations from tutors are way more than last time..

peer pressure is even more intense..

somehow i can feel it..hahaha

my classmates are all super seniors with 3-8 years of experience in ICU..

whereas..mine..a year of experience..

may god bless me..

=)

i believe i can do it..with a little more initiative and enthusiasm..

lolz..

i need all the luck and guidance..

=)

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why do people often feel not being accepted by their friends?

is being accepted really important?

why change yourselves to suit what others want you to be?

(in the context of one's bad values, then a change is necessary..analyze what others comment before doing anything..)

what if the change is not something good to yourself?

in another word..

why must others change to follow the so-called leader of the group?

just because they gossip and stab the person if he/she does not follow along?

then change your group of friends..

friends should accept friends as who they are and not change them into what they want him/her to be..

i do agree with mother theresa..

"if you start judging someone, you will be having no time to love.."

ps : after 2 weeks..i'm actually missing working life..hahahah..