letting go..

a month...i hide myself from reality...

refusing to accept the fact..

thus, i did not go home for a month..

i'm so sorry mom and dad..

i needed some space and some time to let go my emotions..

i'm coming home soon..

though i am a nurse..i see life and death so frequent until i'm pretty immune i would say..

but when it comes to my very very close companions..i failed to control my emotions..

baby and stuart had been a very good companion whenever i'm at home..

basically, home was a place that i hide from all these harsh reality of life and work stress with presence of mom and dad and both of them..

when i need someone to talk and give opinions..mom and dad will be there..

when i need someone to just comfort me, company me..both stuart and baby will be able to do it without fail..

now that i lost part of my comfort and company..i felt lost..

that's why i chose to hide..

i'm still stucked at the stage of depression with slight denial..acceptance say hi to me at times..

but i guess i have to go home and face it for real to fully accept it somehow..

though i might fall back into denial and depression further...

but i still have to do it..

gambate..=)

may both of them rest in peace..

happily in heaven next to God..

=)

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my second graduation is coming up..

for my specialized cert..

i'm working night till graduation day morning and heading to the venue straight after work..

crazy..but with this way..i can confirm my long leaves and go home with my parents..

hopefully my eye bags behave themselves and keep themselves small and less colourful..

and cheeks..please flush yourself in front of the lens ya..

ahahahahha..

Dear God, thank you for all your blessings.