randomness

must have items in my scrub suit..

still need a penlight to complete the set..

f-l-o-w-e-r

♥

 

 

a gift, my cute lil speaker ^.^

an award to be proud of..

an award that caused emotional imbalance in some people..>.<

daily occupational hazard..

cuts..i hate u..

i need a life..sigh...

in need of something new

life have been pretty routine nowadays..

getting bored of things i do..

on top of that..issues after issues at work which made things worse..

unnecessary stress..workload..eating sh*t from others..

 personal life..friends..colleagues..

hmm...guess i need a new environment?

new challenges?

different things in life?

guess its time for me to plan whats next..

sleep

oh boy..its 4.45 am and i am still awake..

i blame it on post night shift syndrome..

which is a term me and my fellow missy use to define insomnia due to altered sleep-wake cycle post night shift..

huhu..

i guess most of the people who work night shift will encounter this problem..

be it a nurse/doctor/pharmacist in hospital..anyone..as long as they really work throughout the night without sleep for days..they have this problem..

yea..a lot of my friends and family asked.."u all really never sleep mer?patients also sleeping.."

yea right..young patients sleep..old patients..they climb bed..jump out of bed..playing with *hit at night..

and in icu?patient suppose to be all ill and cannot make noise or anything right?

you are wrong..in icu..patients are that critical that they can collapse anytime..

we have to do cpr..bag to support their breathing..give medicine..

we see the monitor..interpret the rhythms..changes in values on the monitor..

but sometimes in private hospital..not all icu patients is that ill..

some doctors just admit patients to icu for the sake of admitting patient..$$ minded

or the patient has a datuk/dato/tan sri/ etc..

*sad to admit..*

because in icu..we give 1 nurse to 1 patient care..

and some of these monkeys will treat you like their maid at home..

#$%@#$%

oh god..anyone have any suggestion on how to regulate back sleep cycle?

tried staying awake whole day after work on 1st off day..

work at times only..

any other suggestions?

right?wrong?

march was a pretty busy month..

basically was all about work work and work..

but managed to get 5 days off for a mini retreat in langkawi with family..

was great spending time with family..

was a lil upset the day i left my doggies at the vet clinic which offer boarding for animals..

was so super duper worried that my stuart will fit when he gets hypoglycemic..

he just dont eat dry dog biscuits..yea..choosy doggie..only eat chicken..

previous experience in another pet shop..

he came home after 3 days not eating at all..and fit all the way the night he was back..

T.T

this time round..we decided to leave him with the experts..

and ya..i am satisfied..they did try their best to make sure he eats..

at least a little..apparently i was told he ate dog canned food..*surprised XD* and he came home so well..

other than he controlled his bladder and poo for days i guess..

but i am happy..they both look good..

yay!! =)

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hhmmm..

can anyone define what is right and wrong in our life?

till now..i seriously doubt there is a real definite right and wrong answer to everything in life..

things that i see and go through..

what we were once told/taught bout doing the right thing and wrong thing..

it was all plain perception of the individuals..

it is something which is widely accepted by others in that particular way/method..

that is why it is right..

and also wrong..

who says being heterosexual is right?and homosexual is wrong..?

(dont get me wrong..not saying i am against heterosexual nor homosexuality..just an example..)

its just a norm..

who are we to judge?

different people will have different thinking, upbringing and rationale in things that they do..

some people may not have the same opinion bout what the others say which is wrong..

my little point of view is..

as long as the things that we do, does not cause any harm/trauma/injuries to others..

does not cause extra unnecessary trouble to ourselves and others..

it is good enough..

live moderately..as long as you are happy..be thankful for all the blessings..

 nothing is perfect..and we cant have everything we want..

why follow others?

live without being guilty of what is not done or already have been done..

what have not been told/spoken..

if you are guilty..face it..do what ever necessary..free yourself from all the chains..

life is short..we do not know will we be able to wake up the next morning..

appreciate every moment of life..

*damn..feel so old and philosophical..seen too many people unable to fulfill their last wishes..people who regret not being able to play their role as filial sons/daughters and etc..*

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next..education ruined me..!!

aaarrrgghhh..

shall blog bout it next time..

hahahhaha

=)

pictures..XD

a lil here and there of what happened from chinese new year till now..

time passed so fast..its already end of february..

dessert for cny dinner with family..

symbolizes 年年有餘..=)

chinese new year was great somehow being at home..

the comfort and food was enough to turn me into a lazy fat pig..lolz...

did not really have adequate rest..

and headed all the way to Penang..

visited kek lok si on the 3rd day of chinese new year..

wanted to pray for a good a year ahead..

it was packed with people..

end up did not even go up to the newly renovated guan yin temple..

anyway, i went there before..XD

 (wonder why my friends like to put a small plush toy at the dashboard..?and i will always put sunglasses on them..this the the 2nd toy with sunglasses by me..hahahha..)

few weeks later..

went all the way down to johor to attend housemate's wedding luncheon..

^.^

most of us felt so happy and touched to see her walking down the aisle..

did not really get to take picture with her till the end of everything..

managed to take 2-3 pics with her in a group..

 group picture..=)

with the partially drunk red tomato face groom..

hahhaah

 and me syok sendiri with my friends snapping all the way from pj-johor..

lolz...

valentines day was an ordinary tuesday as i was at work..

life is never easy after my course..

still struggling to learn and gain more experience..

i can feel a lil more positive vibes is back with me..

at least i dont keep breaking and dropping things that i hold and touch now..

guess i broke a bracelet..almost lost friend's earring..dropped few vials of medicine (thank god its vial)..taped a few ugly plaster on my patient's face..and almost break a few other items..

hahahahha..

i was in that negative state till whatever i do was all wrong..

but again..i always remind myself..

define right and wrong..

its plain perception which is agreed by majority of the people..

and the best part is..these people will go all out just to penalize you are wrong..

and sentenced you to death..literally...

hahahahhaha

life goes on..=)

mixing with right attitude and positive thinking people do help..

the worse ever happened was to mix with negative people when i myself was filled with negativity..

the feeling was horrible..

Thank you to all those who were by my side all along.

lending me a pair of ears to listen to all my problems.

and most important gave me great advises without judging me and keep telling me to fight back..=)

you made my day. =)

i am grateful and thankful ♥

siao..XD

Lesson of the day..

learn acronym in cantonese..

M.C.C.

mong cha cha..

F.L.C.

fatt lan cha..

T.K.Y.

tor ka* yu..

wakakkakakaka..

siao-ness increased to the next level as stress increase day by day..

@.@

but must remember..

avoid doing/being all the above as it may lead to even more stress..

hahahhahah..

brain jammed..

guess i think too much nowadays..

or may be things really happen in that way..

hahaha..

life goes on..

i'm supposed to be a happy girl today..

but i had a bad day from the moment i woke up till now..

so..yea..shall throw all unhappy things far far away..

facts that i have to accept no matter what..

some friends may come and go..

some friends will leave footsteps in our heart..

and some friends will leave scars in life..

letting go of something is never an easy process..

forgiving may seem easy..just by saying "u r forgiven"

but really mean it?

forgetting and moving on may take forever..

at times..being selfish is actually a natural protective mechanism of ourselves..

why let people harm us when we can prevent that..?

sound so right and also sound so wrong (by the word of being selfish)..

a lil point to ponder..

His life philosophy will never end..everyday is a learning process..

Thank God for giving me a chance to learn..=)